What My Body is Telling Me…

The doctor called today to give me the results of my MRI. I twisted my knee in New York City nine weeks ago. The MRI showed that I partially tore my anterior cruciate ligament (ACL) — again. I tore the same ligament in the same knee — my left — 14 years ago. Actually, I partially tore it a number of years prior to that and then tore it the rest of the way at that time, which then required ACL surgery.

Many people, myself included, believe their bodies give them messages. In other words, the aches, pains, injuries, and illnesses they get offer information on what is going on with their thoughts or provide messages from their souls. Some call it the mind/body connection. It also can be seen as the body/soul connection.

If this is true, what is my body or my soul telling me? Why have I again torn my ACL on my left knee?

Knees, and joints in general, supposedly represent our ability to move forward with ease. The left side of our body is considered the feminine side. Ligaments are connectors.

Thus, I must ask myself if I have an issue moving forward with some aspect of my life…possibly something related to my more feminine nature. And I must ask myself in what way I am not connected or if my connection is “broken.” Well…

I see my writing as tapping into my feminine nature. I connect with my spirit, my soul, when I write, and I create — I bring something new into the world. All of these things are feminine in nature. Also, the subjects about which I write tend to be spiritual and intended to help and support others, which makes them feminine in nature. However, I haven’t been writing my books. I write just about anything but my books.

I’ve been reticent to move forward with my writing career, although I have said that’s what I want to do. I have fears…I have insecurities…So, I hold back. I don’t do what I need to do. I don’t follow through.

Interestingly, just before I twisted my ankle I sent out six letters to literary agents and about 12 to publishers. I was pursuing my dream of becoming a published author despite my fears. In fact, I was hoping to meet with a few of the agents and publishers while I was in New York City. The idea of doing so also made me nervous, I must admit.

I also write a lot about spirituality, but I have had little time in the last year or so to connect with Spirit, with God. I don’t have time to meditate, to pray, to be in spiritual community, or to listen to my intuition or to my soul’s or God’s “Still small Voice.” I’m not connected…or only a bit.

The day I twisted my ankle, I was filled with anger. Anger is far from a feminine emotion. Plus, it keeps us stuck, rather than allowing us to move forward. It also prevents us from connecting with spirit, from hearing Spirit speaking to us. I ran out of the New York apartment angry, slipped on the wet apartment building steps and twisted my knee (and ankle). I then had to wear a brace for six weeks to support my knee — to support myself in moving forward.

Do you have aches and pains? Have you recently hurt yourself? You might want to ask yourself what your body is trying to tell you. If you need help, try simply closing your eyes and asking your inner guidance, your soul, for a message–for information.Or get really quiet and ask God to speak to you. Listen for the Still Small Voice whispering in your mind.  Or pick up a copy of Louis Hay’s book, Heal Your Body; much of the information you need can be found within its pages.

And then heed the messages. I will be, too. I’ve already started. I contacted one of the literary agents who voiced an interested in representing me and agreed to sign a contract. I’m putting together a package for a publisher in New York that I met with while there who wanted to see several of my book projects. I’m taking time a few times a week to pray — to talk to God — and to listen to what God has to say to me. I’m also trying to let go of my anger (when I feel it) quickly.

None of this will heal my torn ACL. I’ll likely need surgery, but maybe I can prevent myself from having another knee injury in the future.